I am a strong woman, and quite stubborn. Life has not always been kind. But I think in the end, it is what you make out of it. I have learned to trust my instincts, and do whatever I believe to be right and just. I am open, my heart is whole, and so, I can love fully.
There are many things that I love and enjoy. I love my beautiful home, my swingcot, raindrops, chocolate ice cream... I love to sketch, paint, read, dream, the still dark night... I love Irish coffee, Ksara wine, Bacardi with Ginger beer...I love books, music, silence, rains, forests... I love my mom, my two darling boys, my husband... Yes, I am a woman to love, and in love!
I can honestly say that I love somebody, so very much, with all my heart. And there is nothing that can take that awareness away from me.
I love him for his character, warmth and generosity, for his passions, for the way he makes me laugh, for the way he is so open about his feelings, for the way I know I can trust him more than any other person I've ever known... I love him for his kindness and gentleness, for his honesty, for his talent, for his creativity, for his ambition, and for his drive... My lover, my best friend, my soulmate...!
I'm sorry if this sounds too good to be true, and you are reaching for the sickbag. But I don't have to kiss enough frogs to recognise my Prince...
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Yet, I was never blind in love. I chose to be strong, in the sense that I felt I had to do everything on my own, that I didn't need anyone, nor could I depend on anyone or ever fully trust anyone. There were times when I felt empty. The facade I maintained allowed me to live the lie that being strong meant never letting anyone in. I was a scared, bitter person masquerading as a strong, self-reliant woman. When you try to contain everything, pretending everything is okay, it eats you up--and when you live each day with it, you soon forget that there's something wrong.. and you eat it up. Why should I be imprisoned by my circumstances and let it affect my life? I am not going to let my circumstances decide who I am going to be! I am not going to let all that I didn't have determine my future or cap my potential. I am not going to be limited by what others have said about me or what is expected of me.
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I live honestly in the present moment, bravely facing what lies ahead, complete with new understanding of what lies behind me, though no longer subject to the past. I am becoming all that I am meant to be...
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In Tamil, we have a seperate term for each of the love!
The love between parents and Children is called - 'Paasam'
The one between siblings and other relatives are called - 'Nesam'
The one between friends is called - 'Natpu'
The one towards god is called 'Bhakthi'
The one towards strangers is called 'Parivu'
The one between husband - wife is called 'Kaadhal'
The spirit behind all the above words is just love.
It is one of the most beautiful words, and emotion.
You are doing great Saritha. lage raho Saritha ben.
Greatest revealing coming out of salad days!
a cask of sweet wine, baccardi first on rocks and then on ginger beer...ho ho...
Here is someone bold eventually getting down to brass tacks!!!!
becoming bindaas ! well written. So what kind of person are you ? A Scared ,bitter person or a strong stubborn one ?
nice thoughts, language and ofcourse pictures :)
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